At the start of the day whenever I go past a certain school near me there is a gentleman there generally directing parents, teachers and children where to go whatever the weather and he waves to those passing by in their cars, now it doesn't matter if they are there to drop off/pick up or just driving through he always waves and I find myself missing it when he is not there. It always brings a smile to my face. We don't know each other, I do not even know his name and yet it

I feel like I have been in a bit of limbo these past few months, not really knowing myself. There has been a lot of re-evaluating, thinking about what the future holds and my path to it. I know I need to be kinder to myself, I need to stop putting up the walls and masking how I am feeling. I need to open my mouth more when something upsets me, that maybe I am just too good at hiding my feelings for fear of rocking the boat, upsetting others. I’ve always tended to go with the

Hello not quite from the other side but somewhere in the middle. A little up date on what has been happening with me, my last blog came from a place of sorrow, of drowning in my own sadness but I want to clarify one thing, when I said I felt alone, I felt alone even though I have a wonderful husband who loves me dearly and my feeling like that was absolutely nothing to do with him, it is this crappy depression that makes me feel like that, alone, or a burden to others, that f

Hello I have been in a very dark place these last few months, I have to admit that I have been close to giving up on many occasions but that promise I made to myself and again to Emily has kept me here...just. I must admit I have felt very much alone these last few months, alone with my thoughts, alone in my endeavours and left out in the cold. There have been some horrid realisations, for instance do you know how many of my friends have asked me how I am in the last few mont

Am I a proactive dreamer? Probably not, I guess I tend to be the 'so that didn't work out the way I planned so what's next?' kind of...

It has been a funny few months, I have found myself rattled by thoughts, old thoughts, old niggles, opening that box of darkness I...

This week I shall be treading the boards once more with my Abbey Family in one of my favourite Disney Musicals. (OK that's a lie it is my...

Well hello there friends, I promised a new blog update. Life has been a bit manic since I left the NHS in May. Has it been all roses? No....

So my friends, this is the week everything changed. I worked my last shift employed by the NHS, do I regret it? No. Yes the future is...

by Cara Alwill Leyba I have been doing a lot of soul searching recently. Maybe this is a midlife crisis, who knows, but what I do know is...

Hello everyone, Here I am. I’ve spent many weeks wondering what to write, who wants to hear the ramblings of a 45 year old tired and...

Well hello my friends, it has been awhile since I posted anything here so thought I would rectify that. A lot has happened in the interim...

Hello my friends, as you can probably guess things did not go my way and I found myself knocked not only on my bum but totally floored...

As with the rest of the world at the moment, I haven’t done much travelling of late, except for the journeys to and from work and the...

I don’t know why I chose to write this today of all days, the 8th anniversary of my daughter’s death but I wanted to share this whilst it...

So it’s “that” month and I have to be honest this year is testing me in a lot of ways, I guess my positive outlook on life only takes me...

So the writing brain has been dormant for awhile with everything that has been going on and Bob was well and truly keeping his distance,...

So you might think that in the midst of a lock down I would have plenty of time to be creative, to write, to put my thoughts to pen and...

It has been a long time since I just sat and watched the raindrops fall, watch as they quietly hurry down the window pane in some unknown...

I was asked recently which of my poems is my favourite and truthfully one of my favourites is this one, even though I wrote it this month...