Embracing The Unknown

Well hello there friends, I promised a new blog update. Life has been a bit manic since I left the NHS in May. Has it been all roses? No. Am I suddenly rolling in money? No.

Am I regretting my decision?

No.

Because despite the uncertainty of the future I feel free. Now I would have thought by this point there would be some beads of sweat on my brow, that there would be some niggles of regret for losing that stability but no, nothing and this surprises me. Is it blind optimism? Absolutely no idea, but I just know it will work out, perhaps I might eat my words in the future, but that is a future that is unwritten so I am embracing the unknown.

What have I been up to? Well I have been a busy bee making products and getting craft box creations out there through stalls etc along with my Dream Weaver Book business, it's been tough putting myself out there and it's not been an overnight success but I wasn't expecting it to be. It's a learning curve, getting to know what works and what doesn't work, managing my time effectively (something I certainly don't always get right)

And what of my writing? although I haven't been 'present' as such online as much as I would have liked to have been, I am working quietly behind the scenes. I have a couple of competition entries I've been working on and I am putting my 2nd book together (which will be a book of poetry) and I am aiming to have this ready for publication just before Christmas (you heard it here first).

I am also mid rehearsals for Beauty and the Beast one of my favourite musicals and we start blocking it next week (which I am beyond excited about).

With all these changes you would think I would be a stressed out depressed crazy person, but I am not, I spend my week smiling particularly on a Wednesday when I have rehearsals (just with added head bopping and toe tapping). Yes things are a bit chaotic but I know things will be fine. Because as I head out into the unknown I have faith. Faith in myself more so than I ever had before, because it feels right.

I should have stopped hiding a long time ago because in all these waves of changes I have found my direction and I have found myself.