Soul Music

So the writing brain has been dormant for awhile with everything that has been going on and Bob was well and truly keeping his distance, but last week he made a random appearance and gave me so many things to write about, I think he did it deliberately.

So in one day last week I wrote 5 poems and wrote a snippet or two for my ongoing fantasy series, but some of them were snippets for new novels not the one I was actually working on…sigh.. Why is my writing brain so random?

Writing to me is like soul music but it is often elusive, fluttering just out of my grasp like a feather on the wind. I will sit down with determination to write something, anything and then end up feeling like a petulant child when things don’t go my way. I have found myself more and more annoyed of late or perhaps more frustrated which is unlike me.

I am usually a go with the flow kind of person, if you have ever seen the cartoon Stressed Eric you can kind of see the direction I find myself heading in and I don’t like it.

I am not an angry, grumpy person, maybe I am turning into a grumpy old woman or I am just bone weary from the world at the moment, a different way for the Dark Cloud to overshadow my life.

So in ever defiant mode I am fighting back…again. I am trying to find peace in everyday life, I am looking for the things that make me smile even on a grey day.

This week it has been bird song, a video of my brothers new young goats getting up to mischief and the sound of a train horn and its wheels as it trundled by reminding me of a distant memory from my childhood, another has been watching my cat lying on our coffee table pawing at the dog who was dashing about after having a bath in some crazy game (My cat playing is a rare sight indeed).

There maybe a lot of uncertainty out there, a lot of sorrow but also some hope, I hope I can banish this dark cloud with positive, happy things I am finding all around me, should I choose to look for them. It’s just a case of looking.

Until next time x

MJ