Something New

So this last week has been a bit of a roller coaster for me. I have finished my final essay of my degree, final rehearsal outside of the Grand Theatre before I tread the boards next week in a Christmas Carol with the very talented group that is The Abbey Players at the  and I ended up an emotional wreck when I realised I hadn’t got my dream job. But that is OK, if I am honest I knew the moment I left that interview room that it wasn’t all going to go my way this week. It still knocked me flat as I thought I had finally found my home but somethings are just not meant to be and this girl is very used to picking herself back up off the floor and doing that whole rubber ball thing as I call it (bouncing back).

I am not good at many things, interviews being one of them especially when it is something I want so much, but I cannot rewind and be the confident girl with all the right answers no matter how much I might wish it.  I also cannot turn a cake into something that remotely resembles something other than a victoria sponge.  I attempted to make a hedghog cake once for my fiance (you know one of those ones out of a kids cake book) me being me thinking its a kids cake how hard can it be? Well it started out quite well, but lets just say Mr hedgehog looked like he had met with an unfortunate roadside incident when I had finished.

But there are some things I can do, bouncing back is one of them and writing is the other. It is my comfort, my constant companion and something that I love to do. So I will pick up my pen and paper and take comfort in that and the fact that I will be dancing and singing with people I have come to think of as family this week. Last week may have made me question myself and my confidence took a battering but tomorrow brings a fresh week, a new start and a hardened resolve that I will reach my dream, I just need to wait for a new day.