Madness is a good thing

They say talking to yourself is the first sign of madness, the second is answering yourself back, well then there is no hope for me! Rather than be disturbed by this realisation I say embrace it. I think we SHOULD  talk to ourselves, even more so if you are alone in this world. Saying things like

” I am OKay”

“I can do this”

“I am not afraid”

Give yourself pep talks because if you don’t who is going to? Waiting for someone else to tell you means you may be in for a long wait. And life is too short for waiting, so grasp the madness by the horns, do those crazy things you never thought you would, make this the year for doing things that bring you pleasure and tell yourself it’s okay, I can do this. In my case “I can find the time to write, even if it’s not classed as good writing that’s okay too because I am doing this for me and I am no longer afraid of failure” I read a very good book called Feel the Fear and Do It Anyway by Susan Jeffers who said “that underlying all our fears is a lack of trust in ourselves.” this book was a turning point for me. This once shy girl who would hide away from the world decided that she would do things she would never normally have the confidence to do, that year I went down to London and auditioned for I’d Do Anything for the BBC, I didn’t make it through but they told me I had a great voice but I was too quiet. That gave me the boost I needed to go out and audition for Amateur Dramatic groups in my local area, something I wished I had done years ago and from that I have made new life long friends. I keep this promise to myself every year now. In 2011 I did the same, I was at a turning point in my life using a dating site to find anyone crazy enough to go out with me, spotted a gorgeous guy who normally I would just skip straight passed as someone like that would never consider me, but you know what? I stopped, I listened to that inner voice telling me, what have you got to lose, so why not? So I did, I sent him a message and 5 years later we are still together and engaged to be married. I have learnt more about myself in the last 5 years than any of the 32 years before it all because I listened to that inner voice, I listened to my own voice telling me I am okay and I am not afraid anymore. Quietly I have been searching for my writing muse and now with the New Year, I finally think I have found it.