Buddha’s Wise Words

“Your worst enemy cannot harm you as much as your own unguarded thoughts.” Buddha

And for me very wise words indeed, a head swimming with thoughts and information it’s a wonder how some days I even have enough brain power left to put one foot in front of the other!

Take editing my work for example, this is my most problematic task, just a sample of the thoughts that go through my head.

“What if it sounded better the other way?”

“What if I have made it worse?”

“Or does it just sound silly now?”

“How on earth do I spell it” You know those days where you are even second guessing every word you ever learnt in school? (You know the answer but for some reason it just doesn’t look right on paper)

“What if no one reads it?”

“Is there any point me sending this into a competition if everyone else is awesome?”

“They’ve probably been published in every magazine out there so what chance has mine got?”

“Have I actually got the money for the entry right?”

So you get my drift?

Oh it’s not just my writing that sends my brain into overload, every day stuff causes traffic jams too. Let’s just say procrastination is a good friend to my over thinking. “If I am too busy washing up I wont make a pigs ear out of the editing I have been putting off for ages, maybe if I tackle the ironing it will stir some inspiration” Really ironing? Does anyone else find that they do this with other things in their life as well as writing? I know I do it all the time, they all go hand in hand with my can’t be arsedness so it really is a wonder I get anything done at all.

That being said this year has been slightly different, I find myself chastising myself more, not finding so many excuses, reminding myself of the reasons why I am doing this. It’s like my writing muse has decided enough is enough, it is time to bare your soul and take what follows. In one of my previous blogs I mentioned feeling the fear and doing it anyway, if I can say so what to all those anxieties, all those fears and carry on then there is nothing else left to worry about.

So taking a quote from one of my favourite films Ever After, I am replacing all those thoughts with just two words.

“Just breathe”